Posts Tagged ‘mommyhood’

To my sweet, second born son,

Before we met you, I honestly wondered how I could love someone as much as I did your brother. I shouldn’t have. The moment I heard you, I knew. I don’t know how it’s possible, but perhaps that’s a little magic. I wondered about how different you would be from your brother, and how the two of you would get along this first year. You were just as snugly as H, and I was so glad. You have a strong personality. You are willful. You are determined. The fact that you are three years younger than your brother doesn’t stop you from trying to do everything he does (and more). You have an thoughtful mind. You want to know how things work- why and how does this door close, where does the picture come from on the iPad, how did you just open that thing? It amazes and scares me how smart you seem to be.  I fully expect you to start talking in full sentences one day soon, because your inflection mimics mine so closely, I can already tell what you want to say most of the time. You are adventurous, and so far, you don’t seem to know fear. You have yet to sleep more than 6 hours in a row. You keep me on my toes.

You are you, and I couldn’t ask for more.


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The Not So Glamourous Life

8-11-11 I’m sitting on the edge of my bed typing on the iPad hoping I don’t wake up C by breathing. I know if I leave the room, I will have 10 minutes, at most, to do whatever before he starts to fuss. I am not used to this. H was such an easy baby for the most part. Something I took advantage of to do things like actually talk to my husband, knit,scratch an itch- all without worrying that the baby would wake up. It has been a particularly hard week though. C got his four month shots, the houses being reinspected before we close, trying to tie up loose ends on the other house we made an offer on and aren’t buying, etc.

C is going through a phase where he wants to nurse all.night.long. It is driving me a wee bit crazy. I love him to pieces, but I also need to not touch anyone for a few hours day. Whoops, tapped too loud….

8-15-11 Taking a few minutes during H’s rest time to finish up. C is having tummy time and scooting around in circles. On Saturday, things went from bad to worse. C decided that he was going to be up from 10:30-3am. And then wake up at 7. And nurse twice (three times?) in between. I was a walking zombie, and I taught a mom and daughter to knit Sunday. Thankfully, he slept well last night. He had a final nap from 6-8 (I tried to get him to hold out, but he just crashed). Then I put him down for the night at 10:30. He did well, only waking up to nurse about three times. And none of the nursings really got either of us up. Small victories! Hopefully, he feels a bit better now, and we’ll start getting some good sleep again. We both could use it.

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I can’t believe C has been a part of our family for almost for months now. Yet, it also seems like he’s been here forever.  He’s a generally happy baby, but when he’s not happy he is really Not. Happy.

When he’s getting ready to really cry, the corners of his mouth turn down and his chin waggles. It is exactly like in a cartoon, except it is for real. That’s really the only time that H doesn’t like having a baby brother.


C is an expert at rolling over, just like his brother. And just like his brother, he seems to forget that he can roll both ways. So if he is tired of being on his tummy, he really just needs to remember he can roll himself onto his back.

We’re still co-sleeping. It’s working out wonderfully.  And, unlike H, I think it is going to last awhile beyond the four month mark. C is a very attached baby. He loves to be held by Mama. He’s getting used to the sling, and I can’t wait to use it more often (right now we are in the middle of a very large heatwave and wearing a silk brocade sling in 105 degree weather is so not appealing).

C quirks-

He has a very sweaty head.

He will try to nurse everything. Last night I gave him a kiss and he tried to nurse my mouth- weird!

He is a very touchy baby. He likes to caress me while he nurses and pets my cheek when we talk.

He goes from happy to crying like a banshee in a fraction of a second.


And on a crafting note- this was a soaker I made about a month before he was born. I dyed the fiber (cormo/kid mohair from Juniper Moon Farms), spun up a heavy worsted yarn, and knit it up using my own soaker pattern.  Aside from needing another lanolin filled bath it is great.





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Since announcing my pregnancy, I’ve gotten all sorts of ‘advice’ on being the mother of two. But mostly I hear this:

“Oh! It’s so much harder than you think. Why would you want another?” or “It’s really, really, really hard. But then once you have two, you might as well just keep adding. You are already outnumbered.”

Which really makes me think about my sanity. When I look back on H’s first few months of life, I find it hard to believe I made it out (relatively) unscathed. My husband was traveling two out of the first four weekends, teaching a full class load, and applying for jobs. When he was with us we either had out of town guests, or were traveling ourselves. This time, he’ll be finishing up the semester for (most of) the Grape’s first month. Then I will have him home for summer break.

I know that the first month will be challenging to say the least, but I can’t help thinking that maybe it will be easier in the long run. H is so excited about becoming a big brother. We won’t have the stress of S applying for/finding a job. I have friends who are moms here that I know I can count on to come rescue H if I need it.

It seems like I’m spending half of my time freaking out about having an infant, and the other half totally zen about the whole situation.  I’m very happy that H is excited, because he is going to be an awesome brother, maybe not all the time, but you know what I mean.  Plus, he’s just so funny now that I’m really trying to enjoy the time we have alone together.

Mostly though I am thinking about what to knit for the new baby. Some new soakers/shorties/longies are a must. As are a few sweaters s/he can call their own. Maybe a blanket. I really love the Latvian Garden Baby Blanket, but I’m considering making it for my new niece who is coming in January.  Any suggestions?


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Mother’s Day v2.0

I don’t know whether my expectations were more in-line with reality this year, but this Mother’s Day was pretty close to perfect.  Maybe I’ve realized in the past year that any holiday with a kid under 5 kind of revolves around them.  Anyway, Steve got up with H so I could sleep in a bit.  They went for a walk while I got up and ready.  Then we went to breakfast at our neighborhood diner.  It was super busy, but since the waitresses know us, they made sure we were taken care of.  Then we went to Target and PetSmart.  H loved PetSmart- there were lots of dogs to chase.  🙂  Steve went to tutor and H and I made some awesome baked penne.  Yum.  Overall, not your stereo-typical Mother’s Day, but just about perfect for me.

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Cloth Diapering

Once I found out I was pregnant and living in a place with a washer/dryer, I knew I’d be cloth diapering.  

For me, cloth diapering is super easy.  I also can tolerate the diaper changes better than the few times we have used disposables.  I do laundry every other day for the most part.  And in the summer, I line dry them.  
I really love to talk about cloth diapers, so if you are thinking about using them, or just have questions, feel free to message me.
(originally published 4/13/2009)

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