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To my sweet, second born son,

Before we met you, I honestly wondered how I could love someone as much as I did your brother. I shouldn’t have. The moment I heard you, I knew. I don’t know how it’s possible, but perhaps that’s a little magic. I wondered about how different you would be from your brother, and how the two of you would get along this first year. You were just as snugly as H, and I was so glad. You have a strong personality. You are willful. You are determined. The fact that you are three years younger than your brother doesn’t stop you from trying to do everything he does (and more). You have an thoughtful mind. You want to know how things work- why and how does this door close, where does the picture come from on the iPad, how did you just open that thing? It amazes and scares me how smart you seem to be.  I fully expect you to start talking in full sentences one day soon, because your inflection mimics mine so closely, I can already tell what you want to say most of the time. You are adventurous, and so far, you don’t seem to know fear. You have yet to sleep more than 6 hours in a row. You keep me on my toes.

You are you, and I couldn’t ask for more.


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It’s Saturday morning. Cat in the Hat is annoyingly singing his theme song on the TV. I’ve been up since 5, which is way too early as I didn’t get to bed until 11:45, then had to deal with cats fighting at 2 and a husband snoring loudly at 3. I still need to go let the chicken out of her coop. She’s probably protesting loudly by now.

Hopefully we will make it to the farmer’s market this morning. Then maybe go over to Barnes and Nobel so H can pick out another Star Wars book. Maybe a trip to the zoo this afternoon- if I feel like braving the crowd (by which I mean we might actually see other people as we amble through). Just something to keep the boys interested. S works today from 11:30-7, and he’ll probably need to grade after that, so anything I can do to stop H from saying he’s bored is good. Maybe we’ll order pizza or pick up Five Guys. I love to cook, but it’s impossible to enjoy it with C crying at my feet to be held.

I need to remember to go to the store too- we need bananas, apple cider vinegar, and paper towels. I wish Target had fruit, since it is so much more enjoyable to take H there than the grocery store. He is appeased by getting to look down a few toy aisles. No such luck at the grocery store, even though he likes to help pick out and weigh the produce.

Maybe I’ll even get to knit tonight. Or read. Or take a long, hot bath. Or watch the last two episodes of Downton Abbey. Any of those would be nice.

If you had told me 10 years ago that this was going to be my life, I’m sure I wouldn’t quite believe you. Two boys?? Knitting?? A chicken in the backyard? I can picture my life differently, but the only thing I want to change today is to add in some more sleep.

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The Not So Glamourous Life

8-11-11 I’m sitting on the edge of my bed typing on the iPad hoping I don’t wake up C by breathing. I know if I leave the room, I will have 10 minutes, at most, to do whatever before he starts to fuss. I am not used to this. H was such an easy baby for the most part. Something I took advantage of to do things like actually talk to my husband, knit,scratch an itch- all without worrying that the baby would wake up. It has been a particularly hard week though. C got his four month shots, the houses being reinspected before we close, trying to tie up loose ends on the other house we made an offer on and aren’t buying, etc.

C is going through a phase where he wants to nurse all.night.long. It is driving me a wee bit crazy. I love him to pieces, but I also need to not touch anyone for a few hours day. Whoops, tapped too loud….

8-15-11 Taking a few minutes during H’s rest time to finish up. C is having tummy time and scooting around in circles. On Saturday, things went from bad to worse. C decided that he was going to be up from 10:30-3am. And then wake up at 7. And nurse twice (three times?) in between. I was a walking zombie, and I taught a mom and daughter to knit Sunday. Thankfully, he slept well last night. He had a final nap from 6-8 (I tried to get him to hold out, but he just crashed). Then I put him down for the night at 10:30. He did well, only waking up to nurse about three times. And none of the nursings really got either of us up. Small victories! Hopefully, he feels a bit better now, and we’ll start getting some good sleep again. We both could use it.

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I can’t believe C has been a part of our family for almost for months now. Yet, it also seems like he’s been here forever.  He’s a generally happy baby, but when he’s not happy he is really Not. Happy.

When he’s getting ready to really cry, the corners of his mouth turn down and his chin waggles. It is exactly like in a cartoon, except it is for real. That’s really the only time that H doesn’t like having a baby brother.


C is an expert at rolling over, just like his brother. And just like his brother, he seems to forget that he can roll both ways. So if he is tired of being on his tummy, he really just needs to remember he can roll himself onto his back.

We’re still co-sleeping. It’s working out wonderfully.  And, unlike H, I think it is going to last awhile beyond the four month mark. C is a very attached baby. He loves to be held by Mama. He’s getting used to the sling, and I can’t wait to use it more often (right now we are in the middle of a very large heatwave and wearing a silk brocade sling in 105 degree weather is so not appealing).

C quirks-

He has a very sweaty head.

He will try to nurse everything. Last night I gave him a kiss and he tried to nurse my mouth- weird!

He is a very touchy baby. He likes to caress me while he nurses and pets my cheek when we talk.

He goes from happy to crying like a banshee in a fraction of a second.


And on a crafting note- this was a soaker I made about a month before he was born. I dyed the fiber (cormo/kid mohair from Juniper Moon Farms), spun up a heavy worsted yarn, and knit it up using my own soaker pattern.  Aside from needing another lanolin filled bath it is great.





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catching up

Trying to sit and write has been a bit hard lately, but I finally found two minutes together.  Charlie is settling into a bit more of a routine, which makes everyone a little happier.  He’s such a happy baby, but like his brother, he prefers to do the majority of his sleeping on my chest. That makes typing/knitting/eating/etc somewhat difficult. Difficult, but so worth it. I learned with H that the snuggles don’t last nearly long enough (and H is a cuddly three year old), so I’m soaking it in while I can.   It’s hard to believe it’s been more than a month already.

photo by Katie Wolfe

The other thing keeping us busy- we’re in the process of buying a house. The inspections have been scheduled, so it feels a bit more real now. Although I still can’t quite wrap my head around the fact that a) I’m old enough to be buying a house, and b) that we’ll be in one place long enough to justify buying a house.  I suppose that having two kids and buying a house should make me feel like a “real” adult, but I don’t think it does.

In normal news, our CSA has started up again. It’s been lovely getting fresh lettuces, carrots, beets, dill, cilantro, parsley, and kale. It’s been a great supplement to all the frozen meals I made when I was pregnant. It’s nice to know that we have fresh vegetables even when we can’t make it to the store.

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Since announcing my pregnancy, I’ve gotten all sorts of ‘advice’ on being the mother of two. But mostly I hear this:

“Oh! It’s so much harder than you think. Why would you want another?” or “It’s really, really, really hard. But then once you have two, you might as well just keep adding. You are already outnumbered.”

Which really makes me think about my sanity. When I look back on H’s first few months of life, I find it hard to believe I made it out (relatively) unscathed. My husband was traveling two out of the first four weekends, teaching a full class load, and applying for jobs. When he was with us we either had out of town guests, or were traveling ourselves. This time, he’ll be finishing up the semester for (most of) the Grape’s first month. Then I will have him home for summer break.

I know that the first month will be challenging to say the least, but I can’t help thinking that maybe it will be easier in the long run. H is so excited about becoming a big brother. We won’t have the stress of S applying for/finding a job. I have friends who are moms here that I know I can count on to come rescue H if I need it.

It seems like I’m spending half of my time freaking out about having an infant, and the other half totally zen about the whole situation.  I’m very happy that H is excited, because he is going to be an awesome brother, maybe not all the time, but you know what I mean.  Plus, he’s just so funny now that I’m really trying to enjoy the time we have alone together.

Mostly though I am thinking about what to knit for the new baby. Some new soakers/shorties/longies are a must. As are a few sweaters s/he can call their own. Maybe a blanket. I really love the Latvian Garden Baby Blanket, but I’m considering making it for my new niece who is coming in January.  Any suggestions?


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Oh baby

So, there’s an actual reason for the silence (as opposed to being lazy or busy). We are expecting a new addition to our family in early April. The first trimester I spent a lot of time getting acquainted with our couch and trying to avoid morning sickness as much as possible. I’m starting to feel better now, and hopefully I will have some projects to show you soon.

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